the search for connection often begins with observation, a quiet assessment of who might share a similar desire for intimacy. in one account, the author describes scanning a gathering, identifying potential partners.
the scene shifts with the arrival of a youthful, slender individual. this newcomer, possessing striking features and an alluring demeanor, initiates a direct conversation, inquiring about the author's intentions for the evening.
the author, admitting to being attracted and feeling a palpable sense of arousal, confirms their interest in finding companionship.
they mention securing private accommodation nearby, but express a preference for further enjoyment of the present company and beverages before departing. this shared sentiment sets the stage for a period of growing intimacy.
for approximately two hours, the two individuals engage in conversation and shared drinks.
the atmosphere becomes increasingly charged with physical affection, including passionate kissing and discreet caresses through clothing. by the end of this period, the author feels ready to proceed, signaling their desire to leave and leading their new acquaintance to their vehicle.
a moment of uncertainty arises as the author follows instructions from their companion, initially fearing a change of heart.
however, their concern is quickly replaced by surprise and pleasure as the younger man begins to perform oral sex with exceptional skill. the experience culminates in the author's orgasm, a testament to the companion's prowess.
after this intense encounter, they travel to a hotel, with the younger man providing directions.
upon arrival and entering the room, the author feels their desires are being fulfilled. the environment intensifies, becoming more sensual and intimate.
they spend time kissing and undressing each other, a process described as fluid and uninhibited.
the author then initiates further physical intimacy, using lubricant and gently preparing their partner for intercourse. the narrative then describes the act of penetration, highlighting the author's satisfaction and the physical dimensions of the experience.
the younger man's vocal reactions confirm the pleasure he is experiencing, encouraging the author.
the physical position during intercourse is described, emphasizing the tightness of the partner's body. the author, realizing they haven't exchanged names or ages, pauses to inquire. the response reveals the younger man to be nineteen years old, and also discloses a significant detail: the sexual act they are engaged in is illegal in their current location.
the author expresses visible concern due to the legal implications.
the younger man, sensing this anxiety, reassures him with a gentle kiss and a whispered confession. he explains that his parents are aware of his sexuality and his current activities, having even secured the hotel room for him. he further states that his parents have no intention of pressing charges, alleviating the author's fears.
this revelation brings a sense of relief to the author, who embraces his partner.
the intimacy continues, marked by passionate kissing and further descriptions of the sexual act, with both individuals expressing pleasure. the narrative emphasizes the intensity and emotional connection experienced during this forbidden encounter.
the author describes the feeling of consuming "forbidden fruit" as exceptionally rewarding.
the climax of their intimacy is reached with the author ejaculating inside his partner. the physical sensations and emotional impact of this culmination are vividly portrayed, leaving the author in a state of amazed reflection.
afterward, the younger man asks for a cigarette.
the narrative then shifts, introducing seemingly unrelated fragments. one mentions an Icelandic folklore figure, 'ljuflingur,' known for seducing human women.
another offers praise for volunteer editors, comparing their contribution to the invention of oral sex. a third fragment describes a quiet day at a hair salon owned by the author, detailing the services offered, such as hairstyling, manicures, pedicures, and massage.
further textual inclusions appear to be personal notes or filler content.
one expresses thanks to an editor for their assistance with a writing project and requests comments to improve future writing. another depicts a domestic scene where a partner, Ryan, calls out to Miles, who is engrossed in an art report, offering an early birthday present. the time is late, and Miles is still working.
the narrative then returns to a more focused, perhaps theatrical, context.
the author expresses disbelief about a person they are to work with. a script description is presented, outlining the desired characteristics for a "twink" role: expressive, bubbly, seductive, and cute. the author contrasts these described traits with the reality of the individual they are observing sitting next to someone named Dave.
the social dynamic is described as distant, with the two individuals not appearing close.
the author explains Dave's practice of introducing actors in a relaxed, home setting before commencing work, aiming to ease initial interactions. the narrative then delves into personal reflection about being a late bloomer, describing a past as a shy, intellectual youth who was hesitant to initiate romantic encounters due to fear of rejection.
a prior "blind date" is recalled as a complete failure.
a recurring theme of self-questioning about sexual identity emerges. years prior, an experience with a hitchhiker prompted the author to write a story titled "am i gay?" The author states that the current narrative will definitively answer that question.
the story then mentions initiating an online correspondence with a man met on a gay chat site. this individual, like the author, is married but significantly younger.